So I'm going back to work tomorrow .... Starting a new job in the ER in Jacksonville, FL. It's been amazing to be home full time with my boys and just have so much family time. I am a little anxious to get "back to the grind" in the sense of needing to prove myself in a new work environment with new physicians and new computer systems.
I pray God grants me favor and allows me to succeed and above all be some kind of tool for his kingdom in the craziness of disgruntled, hurting and impatient patients. Mmmmm... I'm thankful for my job and an opportunity to serve so many people. Help me father to be a PA for you, show me what that looks like.

Cooper is 2 1/2!!!!

So coop is 2 1/2 and Babcia & dziadziu were in town so we had a mini celebration!!! Coop is also potty training and has the siusiu ( pee in polish) thing down... Almost no accidents !!! Poopies however, he feels the need to withhold until he gets in his crib. He regularly poops in pants during nap n bedtime.... So gotta work on that. He only wears a diaper at night now and he's just growing like a crazy man!!!!

Greyson is using a sippy cup, feeding himself and eating table food like turkey n pancakes. He's also on the move.... Not exactly crawling but more like wriggling and rolling to where he wants to be :)

My parents were here for the weekend and it was wonderful to see them !!!!

first disney trip august 2011

yes, i know..... very delayed but this was our first trip to disney!!! coop did awesome and had so much fun. grey did great too...disney has amazing babystations for nursing and changing your kids, feeding, playing etc so it wasn't bad at all. we had the double stroller and the boys napped in that. i wasn't so sure about this adventure but i'm so glad we did it. it was a "magical" time and the kids did amazing!!!

driving the race cars

magic carpet ride

fam picture

dumbo ride (did it multiple times, coop actually did awesome with the lines)

being silly with daddy while waiting in line

crazy tea party!!! (also did this ine multiple times...a fave)

this was by far the highlight.....if you can tell cooper is holding a tiny pooh figurine in his hand an he ran up to pooh and showed him and gave hime a big hug...everyone was dying.....so stinking cute!!!! he also kissed tigger on his nose....coop was soooo excited!!!

he pulled the sword out!!!! ...ok he didn't but he tried real hard

the worst blogger

so yeah it's me...worst blogger ever....also, i used to love to journal since i was a kid and now...just nothing....so here's my my one milionth thousandth attempt to blog and journal via this technological device. i just seem to not be able to get into this whole computer world...i'm like an old lady!!!!

anyway, just spent sometime in his presence and was just humbled by how he sees us. beautiful. blameless. perfect. we (i) put so much pressure on ourselves "to get stuff done" that we forget how he sees us. i sometimes get glimpses of that unimaginable love when i look at my boys...so innocent and amazingly joyful over the littlest things. not bothered by messes and deadlines...oblivious to schedules and planning.

cooper had his first nightmare last night. he woke up crying hysterically saying that "they were taking me away" it broke my heart to see this new emotion. it reminded me of how i will not be able to protect him and shelter him from different things of this world. how sad god must have been as eve let sin permeate her heart...as the Father watched her experience these new emotions.....it broke His heart.

the scriptures are so beautiful and as you just ponder and let them settle into your heart they truly give you a sense of freedom.....the kind that brings peace because you know it's not by your own strength and that you're not walking alone. HE is there...ALWAYS....and HE knows what you are going through.